Photography: Comfort behind the lens

When I lived in California I would go to Del Mar beach as much as I could, with my camera in tow. I was taking a photography class so I finally had an excuse for taking so many pictures. Being behind the camera has always made me feel safe, I remember feeling lost, restless, confused and just walking along the beach thinking. The fresh air and the sound of the crashing waves calmed me, I felt a sense of peace near the ocean. I let my camera lead the way, following whatever caught my fancy. I often walked near the train tracks taking pictures from up above the beach. It may sound unusual but the sound of trains/coasters relaxed me, a sense of distraction from my thoughts.

I found beauty, and joy in everyday surroundings. A coaster may not be much to some people, but to others it signifies hope, hope in a new day, a fresh start, hope of meeting new people, hope of a better day when they reach their destinations.

Photography gives me a feeling of hope, focus, contentment. The world around me seems less scary through my lens.

I would spend hours at the beach staring off into the vast ocean in awe of God’s beautiful creation. I loved the reflection of the sun glistening on the warm sand, as the waves crashed over the various colored stones washed ashore. Looking back at these photos it makes me appreciate the small things, the joy i found watching the birds leave their little prints in the sand as they wandered the beach. the simple satisfaction of watching the waves continuously swoosh back and forth for hours.

A gorgeous sunset over the pristine blue ocean. I remember my exact feelings of loneliness, and not knowing my place in the world. Life passing me by, as I stood still. In a moment it all shifted, with a change in perspective, and a press of a round black button the world stopped. Those insecurities disappeared in that moment.

Birds on a wire

  

I’m in the middle of reading a book, called ‘One Thousand Gifts A Dare To Live Fully Right Where You Are.’ by Ann Voskamp. She invites you into her life writing a list of a thousand things she is grateful for, documenting her struggles, and change through this process. It’s inspired me to include more appreciation in my life rather than dwelling on the things I cannot change.

I want to challenge myself to stray from those pushy negative thoughts, and open my eyes to all that’s around me. We all have things to be thankful for, even when things go wrong. I’m going to start my list, day by day, I may just aim for 100 and see where it goes. I challenge everyone to try this, just jot down a couple things you’re thankful for. (That is if anyone actually reads my blog 🙂 )

1. The sun hiding behind the clouds
2. The sound of our horses chewing their oats
3. Birds sitting on a telephone Wire
4. Fresh eggs for breakfast
5. Clean clothes smelling of Spring, from the gain dryer sheets